i'm here, because livejournal isnt working! -_-

this week.. many things have happened. SIP just ended, november is over and dec is like tml. kinda amazed, that time flies and it's just 4 weeks away from 2009.

can you believe it??

2009, is coming. when i feel that i hvnt had enough from 2008 to feel tt one year has past.

sooo many things hv happened this year. be it for studies, for work, for relationships with others, for family.


you can say that, it is a good year. because of the tears and because of the joy as well.

after so long, i finally understand why they say cherish whtever you have now, cos you never know when you wont see it again.


it may not need to be a person. it cld be times you had with a friend, fun times, or just the simple things in life.

and the tears allowed me to appreciate the happy times more. cos i know that happy times are not always happening and i shld learn to smile when i have the chance to.


this week, i fell sick. and i finally understood wht those who fell ill went through. felt horrible, like i was weak and cldnt focus during work. no energy or strength to talk much and pretty much lost th mood for many things.

cldnt attend dance cos i tried dancing for 5 mins and then.. my head was spinning. so i decided that my body didnt hv that capacity to exercise in that state.



went out with friends but somehow was abit not focussed? i think.. it's also cos of th tiredness frm eating medication yet going for work. didnt want to end SIP by not turning up on its last day you see.



i learnt to appreciate health. when i'm healthy, i cld do almost anything i want and EAT ANYTHING i wanted, without hesitating or thinking abt wht consequences it might bring.


oh well. lesson learnt. not to overwork and under-rest.


but i still thank God. cos thru this sickness, i learnt wht it meant to also "practise wht you preach".

you see, as i saw frens being ill, i nagged at them to eat medicine and rest and eat healthily...


but when it's my turn, i realised their difficulty of doing it. you just feel so sian that you gotta like, eat medication and food doesnt have much taste esp. the healthier ones and resting is like th last thing you wanna do.. cos you wanna continue to work and all.

so ironic, but so true for me. and i had to exercise discipline to carry out what i shld as a sick person.


n i finally understood wht it meant to "practise wht you preach". literally wht i just preached to my friends. LOL.

Discipline is doing what you dont like to do 80% of the time, so that you can see what you want to see 20% of the time.- ps khong

now i know th meaning of wht he said...

recently, i've found that i cldnt blog whatever i wanted to, and had to think twice before i uploaded anything, only to find myself saving it as a draft in the end.

if i really want to blog, i shld blog freely and not be so restrained in my words or thoughts. although i know that not many reads my blog, i dont feel that it's good if.. aiya. dont know how to explain also.

so.. i'm going to stop blogging here le. BUT, at a new location! which is at livejournal. why? because i can erm, choose to post either public/private (to my friends)/ to myself. i really like this function, because... certain stuff shldnt be said like, towards an unknown audience? i dont know. i guess that's why each of us need our own privacy at times and so.. :) i've decided to try out livejournal.

if you all wanna come visit my blog, pls do.

it's http://thsimplepromise.livejournal.com

but i cant assure you that you'll always see updates n stuff anymore. cos some entries will be for friends only or even, for myself only.. hope you all can understand. :) at least i didnt close my whole blog down right? hahah.

p.s if you have a livejournal account, rmb to add me ya! if you want to. :)

Labels: moving to a new place

lost the mood to blog for awhile... tml's supposed to be napfa, but i'm sick (cos i overstretched myself from training for it -.-) and so i think not very good for me to go too. somemore, it starts at 7am. so i wld need to wake up at 5am on a saturday. totally cannot make it... =x haha. (i know, excuses... hai)

today got back BTM, results were okay... *phew* you know, it's rly horrible to be the last person on the register. i always get my paper LAST. the kind of anticipation and agony while waiting......

yes. GRAH. and i cant understand why i choose to compare myself with others. all of a sudden i'm doing that, which i know i rly shouldnt be.... okay, this post is quite random.

shall end it here then. bye bye....

didnt know if i should be blogging at such unearthly hours, but i still am now anyway. HAHA.

yes, as you can see from the time, lydia is not sleeping when she should be. because, she's used to sleeping so late! yes, excuses again. oops!

anyway, today can be considered a day of rest. in the end, i didnt study and was sleeping through most of it. from

4am to 3pm

and 5 pm to 7.30pm+.

yess. must be too tired from sleeping at VERY UNEARTHLY hours + the stress i am facing. so if you see me today, dont comment on my panda eyes okay. somehow i dont like it when people do. ohwell. who wld like it? -shrugs-

i'm really glad that i kept to my promise this week. it was quite a feat you know. 6 whole days. what kept me going was me telling myself

"just live through this day by day"

and i found myself surviving. albeit feeling tired but nonetheless, i did it! *pats on my shoulder* of course, because many many people helped me along! :) and God who's always here for me.

for studies, i didnt know i was that stressed, until today. felt this really big burden on my heart and i cld not figure out what caused it. til i spent time with God and through that, He showed me that i was indeed, putting a lot of pressure on myself knowing and unknowingly.

shocking but true. lydia was stressed about her studies! (something i thought dont really happen to me, if you do know me you'll know why)

this year is my last year in poly. perhaps that is the reason why things have been so stressing and all. all of us (i believe) wants to end our last year in poly with a bang! and maintaining or otherwise improving our scores.

resulting in... our really chiong mentality. -nods- the environment can really affect how we all behave sometimes.

i guess, i need to rmb God's words to me.. and learn how to live my life to please Him alone. sometimes, the praise of others is really precious to us.

but shouldnt we yearn even more for the praise of God? the creator of the universe, the heavens and the earth. mmm. a thought worth pondering about. :)

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